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Gypped
I know I was supposed to post pictures and tell you all about the trip to New York City, but that’s going to have to wait. Tomorrow is my surgery and I feel compelled to write what’s on my mind. Maybe I’ve just forgotten the emotions and anxiety before surgery – and I’ve had plenty…
Read MoreDreams and a White Russian
Last night I dreamt Will Farrell was dressed up as Elton John at a costume party and when I showed up without a costume I said I was Kiki Dee so I wouldn’t get in trouble. Unfortunately Will Farrell heard me and said I had to come sing “Don’t Go Breaking My Heart” with him.…
Read MoreThe Notorious Port
Two years ago today I had a subclavical port installed (I sound like a car) so I could receive chemotherapy without compromising the veins in my arm. I had a love/hate relationship with this little thing. I hated it until I had to have a treatment. Then I LOVED it! I thought I would share…
Read MoreIt All Makes Sense Now
While at the grocery store this morning I saw a woman wearing a pink bandanna on her head and a pink breast cancer bracelet on her wrist. I was drawn to her – being of the same sisterhood and all – but I debated whether or not I should say anything. Then I remembered when…
Read MorePetri Dish Additives
I now have two more things to add to my ever-growing list of physical complaints. I have developed patches of itchy rashes in various places on my body and I started another bleeding episode. Seriously. I couldn’t make this up if I wanted to. Which I don’t. I’m not feeling particularly brave or strong or…
Read MoreI’m a Survivor!!
I am officially a two year breast cancer survivor today. Last year on this day I received a bouquet of one pink and eleven red roses from Todd and the infamous “uniboob cake” from two friends, Amy and Lisa. This year to celebrate I’ll be receiving a Venti White Chocolate Mocha from the lady behind…
Read MoreApril 27, 2005 – The Diagnosis
The sun rose as usual in Benton, Arkansas, on Wednesday, April 27, 2005. The birds sang, the dogs barked, all over the world people went about their business like any other day. Todd had accepted his new position in Pennsylvania and given his three week notice just days before. We were preoccupied with list upon…
Read MoreMy New Normal
I’m not sure if it’s because I’m at the anniversary of my diagnosis and surgery, but I’ve been rather contemplative. Usually I’m pretty shallow, but lately I’ve been thinking deep thoughts. A lot of work for a simple, superficial gal such as myself. I’ve been struggling lately with what has become my new normal. My…
Read MoreIt Keeps Getting in My Way
A mastectomy is an amputation plain and simple. An appendage, if you will, has been removed from the body. Obviously it’s not as traumatic or life altering as the loss of a limb, something you rely on to perform every day tasks. I don’t know of many women who use their breasts to perform every…
Read MoreLong Beach
I’ve been feeling rather nostalgic lately so you can expect to read about some defining moments of my life over the next few months. I’m not so sure today’s post actually counts as a defining moment, but the memory signifies a major turning point in my life. Two years ago at this time Todd and…
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