I Can’t Believe I Said That!

Yesterday I turned on the 5:00 news to see a horrific sight. You may have even seen it on the national news. A large, luxury condominium complex in Conshohocken was destroyed by an 8 alarm fire. Apparently it had been going on for quite some time when I started watching and by then two entire buildings were completely leveled and a third was in blazes. Thankfully the first two buildings were under construction and not occupied.

Unfortunately it went on to severely damage three occupied buildings leaving 400 people homeless. Eleven firefighters were injured, but at this time I don’t think any of the injuries are serious. It’s amazing to me that not one resident was injured in this tragic fire. Sadly, there were animals who were not able to be rescued – pets whose owners weren’t home at the time. The firefighters did manage to rescue the majority of the pets, however, and the animals are waiting to be reunited with their owners. It is heartening to know how the community has stepped up. Several hotels and private homes are taking in the displaced residents with special consideration given for pet owners.

So as I said, I turned on the TV and was greeted by these tragic scenes and do you know what came out of my mouth? I seriously don’t ever talk this way and I’m still stunned I actually said this. Taylor looked at me in obvious shock because I don’t think he’s ever heard me say something like this. As soon as I blurted it I wanted to take it back. I clapped my hand over my mouth and felt shame and not just a little embarrassment. Some of you may speak this way on a regular basis and I’m in no way judging. It was just so out of character for me and I’m a bit concerned as to what this says about me.

I said…

Are you ready…

Please don’t judge me…

I said…

Golly Gee!

Seriously! That’s what I said and I wasn’t being cutesy or silly or anything! I said it with all the feeling of terror I had in my heart!! Who talks that way??

When Taylor recovered from his shock he said in his best Eddie Haskell voice, “I know. That fire is not very neato!”

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Channeling Sandra Dee aside, today is day four of Weight Watchers: The Senior Project to the Follow Up to the Sequel, Part VII. So far so good. I feel confident that this time, THIS TIME, I’m going to lose all the weight I gained on chemotherapy and various treatments and surgeries since then. And maybe another 10 or 15 pounds. What’s different this time? Well for one thing every morning I’ve committed my eating and exercising to the Lord and so far I’ve succeeded.

Another difference is my reward system. Every single time I’ve been on a diet (for lack of a better word) in the past I rewarded a certain amount of weight loss with a food I’d denied myself. Not so this time. This time I’m getting my hair cut after the first 15 pounds. I’m not talking about just a trim and I certainly won’t be denying myself hair color because it could take a while to lose 15 pounds and there’s no telling how many kids I would scare in the meantime. But when I hit the first 15 pound mark I’m getting my first real hair cut since it’s grown out after losing it all. I think I know how I want it cut and it’s proving to be pretty good motivation.

I did have a dream last night that I weighed in (which is kind of odd because I’m doing W.W. online and not attending meetings) and I lost 30 pounds my first week! If that were the case I could get my hair cut AND, oh, I don’t know. I haven’t thought forward to my next reward. Any good ideas?

Alright. I’m off to eat some yogurt and get in some exercise for the day.

CIAO, friends!!

15 Comments

  1. Cheryl Wray on August 14, 2008 at 12:11 pm

    I thought you were going to say something ugly and heartless…so the Golly Gee didn’t shock me. I’ve been known to say that too (since I don’t really cuss, except for when I occasionally stump my toe or something).Continued good luck with your diet and exercise.I wish I could get motivated to do it too!

  2. Casdok on August 14, 2008 at 1:04 pm

    What an awful fire. And i too thought you were going to say something shocking!!You sound so positve about loosing weight, i hope you get your reward soon!

  3. Monnik on August 14, 2008 at 2:13 pm

    ha – Golly Gee. That’s pretty funny. Sad about the fire, though. :(Good luck with WW. I’m doing it too – this time I’m giving the Core plan a try. I love the new way you’re doing it. Great job!

  4. Gretchen on August 14, 2008 at 2:23 pm

    Well gollllllllly! Channeling my inner Gomer Pyle. ;)Seriously though, horrific scenes take our breath (and reason) away. So terrible! I’ll pray for the families as they come to mind.I’ll pray for that haircut to come quickly your way, Jenster. Maybe the you wont be such a hold out, and we’ll get to see.your.face!!! Waiting…. 🙂

  5. beans on August 14, 2008 at 4:01 pm

    it was pretty awful–and to be so close to it all. nothing like anything i have experienced before. the place was a madhouse and we could hear and smell the fire all night. i can’t imagine what it must have been to be one of those families.golly gee-i can hear you saying it!! not bad at all-i agree-thought you were going to have said something horrible.

  6. truth on August 14, 2008 at 5:40 pm

    I love the idea of rewarding youself with a haircut-so much better than food.

  7. The Daily "B" on August 14, 2008 at 7:07 pm

    LOL, I’ve had that happens so many times. As for WW, I stink. Seriously have no motivation, I think you may have changed my mind. I reward myself with a food indulgence everytime I lose ANY weight. See, I told you I stink. BTW, I have a great WW recipe that is sooo goood, do you like Tilapia?

  8. Katybug on August 14, 2008 at 7:12 pm

    Dang, Jen, you should be ashamed of yourself!!! Saying such things, and IN FRONT OF YOUR CHILDREN, no less!!! I’m shocked…shocked and disturbed. You’re so funny! I think your 2nd reward should be either a massage or pedicure. Either way would be a great way to celebrate! I am getting my toes done before I go to the hospital. Seems so silly, but I really want my toes painted nicely, not in my “slap it on as best I can since I can barely reach around the belly” sort of way. OPI’s Kennebunkport red is my favorite, so my toes will be lovely, even if they are covered up most of the time!!!

  9. Sing4joy on August 14, 2008 at 8:14 pm

    Geez Laweez! That story had me going!Can’t wait ’til next week when you earn your hair cut! 🙂

  10. Rosie on August 14, 2008 at 10:25 pm

    I’m with katybug on the mani-pedi as a second reward for your weight loss. What finally clicked for me was accepting that eating healthy and exercising is not a temporary thing. It’s something I have to be committed to every day for the rest of my life.I think your spiritual approach is going to be successful because it’s meaningful to you. Congratulations on taking the first steps. See me over there? I’m the one jumping, cheering and waving her pom-poms. Go Jen!

  11. Stacy~ on August 15, 2008 at 10:36 am

    My cynical little heart was expecting something really bad, so don’t feel weird about the Golly Gee. Hey, it’s kinda cute.Great job on your weight loss Jen. I also agree with the mani/pedi. And why stop there? Maybe you can also treat yourself to a spa day, or at least a massage. Gives you something to look forward to.

  12. God's Guitar Girl on August 15, 2008 at 3:15 pm

    I tend to have nervous laughter at really inopportune times like that, sort of like Anthony Buviere on “Designing Women.” Really quite embarassing.I think you deserve a haircut just for even having a dream about weight loss! I think you need to reward yourself with a shopping trip to your favorite store to find some chauchie new digs that work well w/ your new ‘do!

  13. CindyS on August 15, 2008 at 10:29 pm

    And that’s why I love you, you’re so cute 😉 I would have said something much more shocking I’m sure. I’m so glad that the community is thinking about pets and their best friends. Such a hard time and kudos to the firemen. I hope none were seriously injured.And you go with your WW bad self. I’ve decided September is my new ‘start’ date. I think I want carte blanch for the next few weeks until after my birthday. Bad Cindy.I haven’t been online much so I have lots to catch up on but I started here – now onto back reading.CindyS

  14. Becky on August 16, 2008 at 3:01 pm

    Oh, man…that is awful about the apartment fire. I’m so glad to hear the community pulled together to help out the displace people, though.WOOT WOOT! You go, Jenster! I’m so proud of you for sticking to this thing. You’re going to get that fab haircut soon, I know it.As for your second reward…do something you might not regularly do for yourself. A spa treatment (a facial, pedi or whatever)…or maybe save up for an all out spa weekend when you reach your goal, and just treat yourself to a massage at every interval til then. See, that’s my problem with diets. I reach a goal and want to celebrate with cheesecake or chocolate.

  15. Karol Lynn on August 17, 2008 at 7:26 pm

    My mom was on Weight Watchers, and so was my aunt, they did it together…mom lost a lot, my aunt didn’t because she liked to cheat way to much..I have a friend named Natalie who bet her two daughters that she could loose 20 pounds by the end of the month…$20 a piece….so far she has lost 7-8…and I have been on her daily to make sure she’s eating right and exercising..Last week, we upped the bet…you should read my blog to find out what that is…either way-she will loose, and I will quit!! We will both win!I am with you on this!

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