October Musings

Where has the year gone? I can hardly believe it’s already October. Mostly I’m very happy about it. I love the cooler temperatures and the changing leaves and the smells of autumn. And as I said in an earlier post, every weekend this month is something unusually fun for me.

At the same time, however, I can’t escape breast cancer. Now granted I have learned to embrace pink and I write about my experience, but that’s all on my time. If I want to hang up my breast cancer hat for day or so I can. Not this month, though.

I’m hoping this year will be a little better than last year. Not once during October of 2007 did I talk about breast cancer. It wasn’t until November when I wrote Blasted October, a post lamenting my dislike of Breast Cancer Awareness. I mean, for hundreds of thousands of us every month is Breast Cancer Awareness Month.

I am farther along this year than I was last year, but I still haven’t totally accepted my new normal. I’m getting there. Slowly, but I’m working on it. So I may not write a lot about breast cancer, at least not on this blog. Then again every post might be about the disease. Not likely, but I suppose it could happen.

On a VERY happy note that totally overshadows whatever feeling I may have about all the pink ribbons out there, our weather is going to be Fallish tomorrow and Friday we’re driving to Rutgers University to meet up with our Hawaiian friends and watch their daughter play soccer. She was recently named the BIG EAST Offensive Player of the Week, a first for Rutgers in six years!

So watch me go, all enjoying October and having a good time and ignoring the pink splattered throughout the rusts and golds and burgundies and oranges of Fall. I may not have the best eye, but even I know pink clashes with the warmer tones of Autumn!


  1. radioactive girl on October 1, 2008 at 10:13 am

    I just got an ad from bath and body works and they have a ton of products that are supposed to support breast cancer. I think if you have ever had cancer, they should have to give them to you free. But maybe that is because I really want the hand soap. I am sort of annoyed by breast cancer month. Not because I don’t want research, etc. because I do, I just think it has become so commercial that people don’t really notice it anymore/it doesn’t seem to mean anything. Plus my cancer had no month or cool products so maybe I’m jealous.Congratulations to your friend’s daughter!My word verification has the word grumpy in it. Maybe that is because I sound grumpy above in my comment?

  2. Lynilu on October 1, 2008 at 10:49 am

    You’re in my heart, Jen. Every day, but especially during the hard times, I think of you often and say a little prayer for health and peace of mind. I hope that helps just a little bit.:)

  3. pinkthis on October 1, 2008 at 11:28 am

    Hey Jenster~Stumbled across your blog today. Read the Blasted October entry, too. I know EXACTLY how you feel, and you said it well. Now…if you feel like joining me in poking a little fun at all the Pink Madness of October, stop by http://pinkthis.wordpress.comHave a great day!

  4. God's Guitar Girl on October 1, 2008 at 3:04 pm

    I am understanding your feelings in a parallel way. Whenever there is a time or occasion to recognize your situation, it can feel like there’s a lot of attention dumped on you. Then, when that event or time frame is over, you go back to being forgotten. Everyone else’s lives are back to normal, but yours remains in that grey space of “where am I”. What is normal? Will I ever experience something like that ever again? How do I come to terms w/ my new normal and not be a hostile b*tch to everyone around me?!? (haha, just kidding!)It can be obnoxious, but on the other hand, think of the generations that came before us, suffering through whatever trials alone. As far as breast cancer goes, who knows if/when the cure will be discovered. Until then the comraderie sounds like it is one form of healing balm. It is the living out of Galatians 6:2 –“Bear one another’s burdens and so fulfill the law of Christ.”Hang in there, and SEE YOU SOON!!!!!

  5. The Daily Bee on October 1, 2008 at 5:49 pm

    I can see where your coming from, I actually never thought of it, but when I see if from your point of view… makes sense.You’re one strong womem – year round!

  6. Travis Erwin on October 2, 2008 at 12:26 pm

    I can’t believe it’s October either.

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