Out of Focus

This is going to be one of those really short posts, but I’ve got something to say.

Today was Katie’s spring recital – one of my favorite events of the season. I took pictures for the academy’s website and tried hard not to sing out loud along with the vocalists. What a bunch of talent!

Anyway, Katie sang Still Hurting from The Last Five Years. Do you know it? I didn’t. Oh.My.Gosh. It’s a heart wrenching song and she delivered it with so much emotion that it hit me like a Mack truck. For a minute I thought my lens wasn’t focusing because everything was so blurry, but then I realized it was just my eyes.  Not only that, but tears were streaming down my cheeks. Streaming! I didn’t want to wipe them for fear she would see that movement from the corner of her eye and it would trip her up. That and I didn’t want anyone else to know I was losing it. Because, you know, I have a reputation to maintain.

Todd didn’t fare any better.

What’s wrong with me? Where’s the soulless ice queen? Dang. The hard shell of my heart has been breached. I’m going to have to do something about that before her graduation in June and college in the fall.