Should I or Shouldn’t I

I get to see the White Russian tomorrow. You know, my oncologist. It’s just a routine checkup, but I expect a few things to happen.

First of all, since I had all my girly hormone factories removed last July I should have post menopausal estrogen levels. This means I can stop taking Tamoxifen and be switched to Arimadex which, from what research I’ve been able to do, is a better drug.

The other thing is I expect to be scheduled for a bone scan. I’ve been having some pain in my right hip and my lower left ribs. I’m guessing it’s caused from working at the preschool – crawling around on the floor, picking up kids, throwing them around, duct taping them to the wall. But I can’t ignore the fact that the most common place for a breast cancer metastasis is the bones, specifically the ribs.

I debated whether or not to even blog about this because at this very moment there’s nothing to worry about. But I know first hand the power of prayer so I decided to throw it out there for all you pray-ers.

If I were to say I’m not concerned at all I would be lying. However, I’m not overly concerned at this point. I’ll just be glad to know my aches and pains are nothing more than a pulled muscle or tweaked ligament.

So tomorrow afternoon I’ll post another blog about my visit to the White Russian, my indignation at having to be weighed on a defective scale, the delicious White Chocolate Mocha I purchased as a way to soothe my fat and ruffled feathers, and when I’ll be having my bones checked out.

24 Comments

  1. JenniferTX on January 23, 2008 at 12:01 am

    Prayers are on their way, Jen. Also, could you send me some of your duct tape? I’m thinking it might work on slightly older kids . . . ;)Hugs,Jennifer

  2. Dev on January 23, 2008 at 12:25 am

    I’m keeping you in my prayers, Jen.

  3. Sing4joy on January 23, 2008 at 12:27 am

    Count me in on the prayer team! Tests are yucky. I had my uterus and cervix removed 2 years ago due to a massive tumor and they still make me get a yearly ‘girl’ exam. wrong. just wrong. I bet that mocha goes a long way. I’ll try that for my next exam (and maybe bring along something to spike it with – for medicinal purposes. that’s all. medicinal.)

  4. Lynilu on January 23, 2008 at 1:06 am

    Jen, my prayers are with you, and I’m also praying for your peace of mind as you approach this. If you feel stress, just close your eyes and think of all of us, your blog friends, lined up to give you hugs, one after another, after another, after another …….xo

  5. Becky on January 23, 2008 at 1:10 am

    ((hugs)) and Prayers, Jenster!I had an on-the-job injury years ago on the 4th of July…just after I was married. I was working as a checker in a grocery store, and my boss was nagging at us to move faster. I did, while moving a 24 Pack ‘cube’ of Pepsi, and tore my muscles under my left breast. I had to leave for the E.R. right then, and it hurt BAD for days, and then began to mend. But then, a couple of years later, I had another job heaving photography equipment around, and within a year was hefting a baby carrier in and out of the car…all of which aggrivated that same injury. It mended once again, and with chiropractic and exercize, I thought it was gone for good. Until a couple of years ago when once again, I started lugging around another baby carrier again. All that to say, heaving tots around after not having had them in the house for a while? These things can happen.Prayin’ for the best, Jenster! This will likely just be another chapter in that book. The one you’ll be on Oprah for in a year or two. ;o)

  6. Monnik on January 23, 2008 at 2:42 pm

    You’ve got prayers in my corner too.Don’t you hate those defective scales at the doctor’s office? Problem is, I have a defective one at home, now, too. It says I weigh 10# more than I did last fall. Humph.

  7. Tanya on January 23, 2008 at 2:57 pm

    I’ll be praying that its nothing too bad, that the only warning the doctor gives you is to lay off the duct tape. Choclate Mocha sounds good. Thats what I had as my reward for giving blood last week. At least I think it was that. I asked the guy at the counter what was good and told him that was what I wanted.

  8. Gretchen on January 23, 2008 at 3:23 pm

    I think lynilu summed up my feelings. Prayers, my friend. Praise, too. xxxooogretchen

  9. radioactive girl on January 23, 2008 at 4:19 pm

    Good luck! I know exactly what you mean about worried but not too worried! I can’t wait to read your update!

  10. The Daily "B" on January 23, 2008 at 5:18 pm

    Prayer is powerful! Everything will be fine. =)I’m praying.

  11. Jodi_Lee on January 23, 2008 at 8:15 pm

    Sooooooo…just to clarify — duct taping kids to the wall is bad??? Ya know, i’m always praying for you. You’re my sister from another mister!! XOXO

  12. Shauna on January 23, 2008 at 8:51 pm

    Why is it doctors’ scales are always WAY off? And I’ve been praying for you all day.

  13. Jaime on January 23, 2008 at 9:50 pm

    Hi Jen……I just read this….I hope everything went well today – you’re in my thoughts/prayers. Like you told me a few months ago, no matter what happens, you will be okay……((hugs))

  14. Eileen on January 23, 2008 at 10:00 pm

    Jen, I will be praying for you, although I am sure it is those preschool kids. Tests produce so much anxiety in me in general. It must be 1000 X’s worse having gone through breast cancer and having to wait for the follow up tests. I know I would always be focused on the positive, but have that same worry in the back of my mind. So glad you posted about it. Put it all in God’s hands and the power of prayer will take over from here. Bloggers are some of the best prayers I know. You will be in my heart and all my prayers, until we get an update.Sending you love. Wish I could send you chocolate, cause frankly you deserve some right about now.Love and more love.

  15. Sherry on January 23, 2008 at 11:26 pm

    Gosh, I wish I had seen this before the fact and not after!! I get an email when you have posted, but it only arrived tonight!!!Anyway, you are in my thoughts and I know the feelings you described last night — the things that go through our mind (I’ve got my follow up on February 7th)…and I hate those scales…they’re never right!!!Be good to yourself and know that you are in our thoughts and our prayers — always!

  16. Sherry on January 23, 2008 at 11:26 pm

    Gosh, I wish I had seen this before the fact and not after!! I get an email when you have posted, but it only arrived tonight!!!Anyway, you are in my thoughts and I know the feelings you described last night — the things that go through our mind (I’ve got my follow up on February 7th)…and I hate those scales…they’re never right!!!Be good to yourself and know that you are in our thoughts and our prayers — always!

  17. SnowLite on January 24, 2008 at 2:11 am

    I am praying for you Jen! Yes…absolutely there is power in prayer! I think it is wonderful that we can put our prayer requests out into the blogosphere because so many people pass through our blogs and I believe they do pray even if they don’t comment. May the doctor’s report be good and may you be surrounded and filled with his perfect piece that surpasses all understanding. :)Duct tape and defective scale…too funny. I went to the Y the other night and I think their scale was defective by 20lbs! 😉

  18. SnowLite on January 24, 2008 at 2:12 am

    Jen…i forgot to switch…i am Seaspray 🙂

  19. Zeek on January 24, 2008 at 12:43 pm

    ((((huuugs and prayers))))

  20. Slackermommy on January 24, 2008 at 6:47 pm

    I’m keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

  21. Bookwormom on January 24, 2008 at 8:21 pm

    Thoughts and prayers and hugs and love Jen and family! Hope to hear from you soon..

  22. Jen on January 24, 2008 at 9:13 pm

    Praying for you Jen!

  23. April on January 25, 2008 at 1:18 am

    I’ve got you all prayed up here, friend. [HUGS]Rom 8:28

  24. susan on January 25, 2008 at 3:38 am

    Duct tape…now why didn’t I think of that??? Of course I’ll be keeping you in my thoughts. Heopfully it’s just a pulled muscle or something from all those munchkins.

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