The Hawaii trip is a little less than four months away. I had really hoped to be HOT by the time I stepped on the plane. Or if not exactly hot, then at least restored to my former glory. The glory that was me before I gained 30 pounds on chemo. While not hot, I was at least comfortable with myself. Wanting to be 15 pounds lighter is a whole lot better than wanting to be 45 pounds lighter.
I’m not sure if Todd is simply delusional or full of malarkey. I used to think it was the latter, but the older I get I’m starting to think he has a fantastical image of me in his head and that’s how he sees me. He’s taken to calling me his trophy wife – T-Dubya for short. But the reality is that I look more like a CPW – Consolation Prize Wife. And while I should be glad that he thinks I look good, I can’t help but think of the vacation photos that will shatter any illusions I’ve created in my mind. I can deny the truth for a while by avoiding mirrors, but eventually it will catch up to me.
Even if the vacation wasn’t looming, there’s still the matter of clothing. I was in Kohl’s the other day and they have some really nice clothes. The styles for this spring are so cute, but I refuse to buy anymore clothes in this size. Not only that, I also have vacuum bags filled with clothes I like, but can’t wear at the moment.
So I went to my first Weight Watchers meeting this afternoon. I’ve done the Flex Points on-line a couple of times and had a modicum of success. But I want to lose 45 pounds at a minimum and I think I’m going to need the extra oomph of actual meetings. I wonder if they can give me enough oomph to lose it all before I go to Hawaii! Yeah. You’re right. Probably not.
I won’t be starting the actual plan until tomorrow. Which means I need to eat anything and everything I want to today. I’ve already stopped for one venti White Chocolate Mocha and the day’s still young. Hm. What can I eat next? Maybe a whole loaf of fluffernutters. I’ll need another White Chocolate Mocha for that!
maybe you do look totally hot, and you’re just mental? LOL
Bwahaha!!! Don’t I wish!!!
I used to have a comic that said, “I wish I was as thin as when I thought I was fat!” It’s so true….
I bet you’re more of a trophy wife than you think! How cute that he calls you that. I love it. I count points whenever I’m getting really bad with my eating, and believe me, I have been BAD lately. So I started counting yesterday. I highly recommend microwave popcorn and Edy’s fruit bars for snacks (the smoothie ones are really good and only two points!)
Ugh, diets! Why can’t it be like in the olden days?? I mean, i’ve seen the statues and the paintings – none of those women are thin!!Good luck – I truly believe that Weight Watchers is the best diet plan out there!I get the feeling our husbands are a lot alike.
Aw, he loves you!Well, 4 months you CAN safely lose 40 lbs. not gauranteed though. I had a patient once who went form a size 28 to a size 14 in a month… of course she was drinking a CASE of Mountian Dew A DAY and I switched her to diet! LMAO Hey, we had a lot more issues here then most, that was something. I about crapped my pants a month later and I saw how much she had lost!Switch those Mocha’s out to sugar free fat free and save a bundle of calories. 😉 In the end, I think I would rather be fat then coffeeless but that is just me, coffee is our friend. LOLIf it makes you feel better I am trying to drop a bit of weight before I get knocked up agian, had some probs last time that can be wt related so why risk it with the second one?
As I sit her sipping my Vanilla Chai Tea from Dunkin Donuts, hey I did give up chocolate for Lent, I must admit I’m relieved my husband prefers women with a little meat on their bones :DGood luck with Weight Watchers–don’t obsess.
Yipes! I was just feeling guilty about not following my own diet. It is really hard to follow WW without the meetings, so I am glad you can go to them. The extra support and accountability is what makes all the difference! I bet you will be able to get 20 lbs off by the time you hit the beach in Hawaii. Go for it and I wish you the best of luck!!
Yeah the hubby does the same thing for me… I just lost 12 pounds and he does not see it and says other than having a “bit” of a bottom (which he loves) he has not noticed the 30 pounds I need to lose too…Yeah leave it to men. I will be here cheering you on through your weight loss too.ANd I am going to have to go back and read through to learn about you… Thanks for stopping by
The hubby thing….. I’ve come to realize that the older they get, the worse their eyes are. So, they really can’t see YOU, they only see the you they started dating from years ago, they are working off memory. That’s not always a bad thing either. 🙂 Just don’t get him glasses!